Sunday, May 13, 2012

Happy Mother's Day to ME!

I woke up like a 6 year old on Christmas this morning - except I was given the amazing gift of being able to sleep in. This is my first official Mother's Day. Yeah yeah, I know I'm Lucy's mom. But now I'm mom to a baby that grew in my belly. Yeah yeah, I know Lucy thinks she did so shhh, don't tell her.

Mother's day is so fantastic. Everyone, even men, get all gushy when they think about their moms. Strangers wish you a happy mother's day and you get flowers when you go out to eat. I was totally basking in the glow.

Two years ago, I surprised my mom by showing up to church on Mother's Day. After the homily, the priest starting recognizing the mothers. He said a prayer for mothers new and old, mothers-to-be, mothers that have lost a child and mothers that never got to meet their babies. I was 2 months out from a very painful miscarriage and I felt like he was talking directly to me. My face went hot and I lost it. Thankfully my mom and brother were on either side of me to support me. Among the exhaustive list of emotions I felt robbed. And obviously devastated.

Last year, we had just found out that I was pregnant and were still holding onto our precious secret. I gave thanks for the little squirt flipping around inside of me and prayed that I would be holding my baby the next time Mother's Day rolled around.

And now here we are. We started the day with pancakes and ended it with chicken fried steak. In between, I took a nap with my baby on my chest. We also squeezed in a family walk and Eddy cracked up watching Lucy play with other dogs. It was a perfect day.

'Mom' is this amazing title that feels shiny and new but also feels like it's always been. I have learned my own strength, seen weakness, fallen in love, and had my heart filled. I have gained a new appreciation for my mom and gained a new appreciation for my body. I have realized why I am here and what I was meant to do.

So Happy Mother's Day to new moms, old moms, and mothers-to-be. A special Happy Mother's Day to my mother-in-law, Bonnie, and to my amazing friends that are moms. A silent prayer for those that can't tell their mom that they love her today.

And to my mom, who taught me how to be a mom. Thank you for what you have done and what you are still doing. I love you and Eddy loves you.

A lovely day.



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