Saturday, December 21, 2013

December 22, 2013

There are a dozen posts left unpublished as I haven't touched this space in 2 months. And I really really miss it. I'm making an early New Year's resolution to carve out more time for this blog because I truly love it and value the moments that remain frozen here.

In the meantime, I needed to take a moment to honor my sweet boy on the 2nd anniversary of the most important day of my life: the day he made me a mom.

And for now, I'm borrowing words because they are perfect.








I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you’re here
Brighten my northern sky
I’ve been a long time that I’m waiting
Been a long time that I’m blown
I’ve been a long time that I’ve wandered
Through the people I have known
Oh, if you would and you could
Straighten my new mind’s eye
Would you love me for my money
Would you love me for my head
Would you love me through the winter
Would you love me ‘til I’m dead
Oh, if you would and you could
Come blow your horn on high
I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you’re here
Brighten my northern sky
- Nick Drake


love, kacie


Thursday, October 17, 2013

Dear Eddy, 20 months

Dear Eddy,

When you were still a babe in arms and spent most of your day wrapped up against my chest, we sat in a restaurant with your dad and ate lunch. You were probably 4 months old and would still sleep through meals, not even budging as I dripped guacamole on your head. I sat facing the door and a young man walked in that looked just like the boy named Sunshine from Remember the Titans and rather than swooning as I may have done in years past, I looked at him and thought When he comes back home I bet his mother loves him with a thousand hearts.

I saw him with the eyes of a mom. A memory that hasn't happened yet rushed over me and I saw you walking in the door as a young man. Tall, handsome, and so nice. You were happy to see me and all at once, I loved you with a thousand hearts.

I wonder if, when you are grown up, will I look at you and still see a boy? Will my memories keep up with how quickly you grow or will I always be 5 steps behind?

Right now, it's pretty easy to live in the present. Ours days fill up quickly and we have a really good rhythm. I don't spend the day wishing you were a baby or dreaming about you falling asleep on my chest. But I do get squishy when I sit and look at old pictures of you.

Here I go again, getting weak in the knees thinking about you growing up. I am so thankful for you and for your health and happiness and so so thankful that I'm the mama that got you.

Thanks for being my boy, my best boy. I pray every night for you health, your happiness, and I pray that all the love that we pour into you comes out in the nicest ways.

I love you with a thousand hearts. Now and tomorrow.

Love,
Mama






love, kacie


Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Cuhl

Sometime last week, Eddy stopped saying yes to answer questions and has just started saying, "Cuhl. Cuhl cuhl cuhl."


I'd say.





love, kacie


Saturday, September 21, 2013

38/52

Austin is glowing this weekend. We got an all day, earth-soaking steady rain yesterday and I think everyone feels refreshed today. We rode our bikes to the train station in the neighborhood and took it downtown for dinner. And we didn't break a sweat. I know we'll have hot days here and there but fall is where it's at in Austin, Texas. I can't wait to edit the rest of the pictures from today.



I caught up on the three weeks of photos I missed here.



love, kacie


52 photo series: Catching up

The thing I'm having the hardest time keeping up with is this blog which makes me so sad. I love this space and although I sometimes can't find the right words or snap the perfect moment, this space is the place I have kept track of my little family most consistently and when I do go back and look at old posts, I'm so thankful that moments are saved.

My friend, Sara, told me the other day that she clicked back through my pictures of Eddy from the 52 series and couldn't believe how much he had changed week to week. Not every picture is artful or beautifully edited but you can look back through them and figure out when he started walking, how tall he's gotten, how happy he is. Her comment gave me the kick I needed to go back through the camera and phone and catch up. And this week, I've made it a point to pick the big camera up again and try to capture this fleeting life a bit more clearly.

Here are the ones I missed from the last month and my current one for this week is posted here.



35/52



Dah-puh-dee face - dinner with friends and the boy enjoyed his favorite meal, spaghetti, shirtless and al fresco. I can't think of a better way.



36/52


Dorito Thief - we caught up with Papa and Woody near the end of the wait for Franklin Barbecue and Eddy made fast friends with the guys with junky snacks.



37/52


You Gotta Wear Shades - We've had the good fortune of going to Schlitterbahn three times this summer and the shuttle is by far Eddy's favorite ride. He cries, "Uck??" every time we get off. Also, always buy the cheap sunglasses. It's more than worth it.


Thanks for the motivation to get back in gear, Sass. Love ya.




love, kacie